negative thoughts

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It boiled down to putting my life in order, I can see the paradox there, because putting your life in order is a process within a process within a more critical process, so you cannot ‘boil down’ a possible solution to putting your life in order. However, that is the truth.

It started with me wanting to make a change because I knew that my then-current state was inadequate for the ambitions that I had set in place for myself. Therefore, I needed to change.

My thoughts were negative in the sense that they prevented me from aspiring to be more because I subconsciously understood that I had a less than a zero percent chance of achieving the goals I had set for myself.

So, the first item on the proverbial agenda was repairing my sleeping schedule. My sleeping schedule was genuinely shocking; I would sometimes sleep at 10oclock in the morning, only to chase that up the next day by sleeping at 3 AM. It was a mess.

The second item was organizing my days so that when my days were over, I was in a better state (responsibility wise) than I was in the morning. I did this by time-blocking and scheduling. (More on this in later entries).

The third item was ensuring that I adhered to item one and two. This adherence was the most difficult to achieve.

I was building habits, and habits need to be nourished and fed like a tree, if you neglect a habit, it will die. Therefore, I dedicated my mornings to forming habits and routines. I was able to diligently dedicate myself to these tasks because I had specified my aim, which in turn meant that I had defined the opposite of my objective, i.e. failure. My desire to not fail impelled me to wake up every single morning and dedicate time to the inculcation of the habits I wanted to implement.

If negative thoughts plague you, ask yourself if your life is in order.

Are you content with your sleeping habits? Are you satisfied with your eating habits? Are you exercising? Are you spending enough time with your family? Are you in a healthy relationship? Are you happy with your current line of work and or degree? Are you satisfied with your competence as a brother/sister/significant other/ employee/employer? These are tough questions that we must pose to ourselves regularly because they will allow us to identify stagnation. Stagnation is the poison of progress. Progress is the key to meaning. Meaning is the key to happiness.

Assess your current state and take the initiative to action changes to rectify your shortcomings. Be the person you want to be.

Question your competence.

Oliver